If Roses Are For You

The rose pedal fell
I wrote you to pray
But it was too late
So I try to think of our call
I think of the invite
My mind is eased
But only for while

As time goes by
The songs are sung
Most of them sad
So I begin to cry
I think in my mind
Those times of joy
I miss him so
But it’s hardly sunk in

I finally see you
My spirit is uplifted
Sparkly and shiny
You bring a smile to my face
When I run into a friend
I tell him I’m fine
Even though I’m hurt deep inside

When we meet
A hug is surprise
But I enjoy it
Because it’s from you
My mind is clear but my heart is not
Your eyes tell a story
That mine eyes cannot

I wish that right now
I could hug you again
Just because I like it
I’ve got no one to hug
And tears stream down my face
I swear I would feel better
If you were here with me
But he is still gone
It seems like forever

When I first saw you
I thought nothing at all
Now I think about you often
You have brought me so much
So much that he’ll never see
It’s funny that I smile
But life’s just that way
You win and you loose

Sometime we should talk
Before it gets too late
I’m still really sad
But you’re special to me
A connection is felt
Even after one went away

If all I have is one goodbye
Then goodbye is what I’ll say
But it’s really hard to process
Even though he’s gone home
And I know he’s safe and sound…

I’m at a loss for words
So I think I will end
Maybe I can wipe the tears just one last time
I stare at my wall
I want to write but I can’t
I want to scream but I won’t
I hold it in but I shouldn’t
Maybe poetry helps


05/15/09